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(@kelliec)
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Okay here it goes !!!  MY mother died when i was 13. She battled cancer with everything she had in her for me and my brother but she lost the battle. I was pretty traumatized over it at first. I would cry and pray to god to let me see her or be able to speak to her. I had a dream that my room kept getting brighter and brighter and it scared me for sum reason so i kept trying to wake myself up. I don't know if it was a dream because i squeezed my eyes shut thinking i would wake up and the light would be gone, well i did this a few times and the light was coming from the corner of my room. My great aunt who i call grandma said she heard me crying and when she came in the room i was in my closet crying. I dont remember in this dream going in the closet. I just chalked it up to it was still fresh in the first year she was gone and i was still going thru stuff so i dismissed it. It was about 2 years later i was watching tv with a friend and the way she had the house set up where i was sitting i could look in this long mirror and see down the hall. I wasn't thinking about my mom on that night and was into watching the movie and something caught my eye in the mirror and when i looked i see a a side profile of my mom and she kinda hoverd from the bathroom into a room and i jumped up and freaked out. My friend and i tore the 2 rooms apart. She later told me she thought i was crazy and i may be but it looked real and it felt real and i knew it was her !!!!!!! Just a feeling. Well later down the road the woman i tell everyone is my sister is really my best friend of 20 years and we are as close as 2 sisters can be. She was loosing it mentally over a lot of stuff, 2 much 2 go into. She wanted to end her own life but was scared to act on it. We now know she had the mutilation syndrome because of sum things in her past. She came to me and said she was laying on her steps looking out of a skylight and a vision of my mother came to her. She said my mom told her she was proud of me and to stop running and its okay to go home. She also said my mother told her to tell me MA ?? I still this day have no clue what MA is suppose to mean but im on the look out for it !!! Well anyway when she told me this i thought she was really loosing it mentally and never told a sole what she had told me because i was working with her to keep her from being hospitalized because of her kids. I never told anyone !!!!!! My brothers girlfriend always said her mom had a gift but i brushed it off as a young girl trying to be cool but thought she was also full of crap !!!!!!! A good 10 years went by and i drive up to spend the weekend with my brother and his family. Well his girlfriend Rita looked at me kinda scared and said she had something to show me and brings out this notebook. She then tells me her mother spoke to my mother !!!!!! I didnt believe her but i was willing to humor her because she was young so i let her go on. She repeated sum of the same stuff my best friend had told me and i was no where near my brother or even talked to him or his girlfriend so i know she had no clue my bestfriend told me very very similar stuff. At this point my curiosity is peaked so i waited for her mom to come over and i asked her mom how did she know it was our mother. She told me she had an overwhelming warmth but it was directed towards me and my brother. She then said when it happens to her she tells someone to grab a pen and paper because she doesnt remeber anything when she is talking to s spirit. Its been awhile since then and Rita is in her middle 20"s and still swears that what she wrote was what her mother was saying ?????? Ive had no other visions or ghost or light but i feel her presence more now than ever . I am a believer now because its just to much to be a cowinky- dink ~~~ I  really dont dream or dont remeber if i am dreaming but ive had sum really weird ones that just popped out of the blue and then something happens. I dreamt i was inside with my mom and there was a big bon- fire going outside but my mom was really sick in this dream but she kept telling me to go ahead to the party but do the right thing ??? Weird dream but the next morning my uncle drove 5 hours and dropped my brother off and got himself kicked out up there. Well i still didnt tie the dream in however it stuck with me because i felt like if i went outside to the bon-fire i was betraying my mom and it felt like over whelming grief and seemed so real. Well as my brother got comfortable in my house he started being a real prick . my brother, His girlfriend and daughter were all living with me and i was sooo happy at first he came to live with me how ever as time went by our relationship really started going down hill. He was 4 when our mom died. Even though he was almost 18 he still seemed very inmature for his age and so many times i wanted to give up and tell him to fly a kite and i was livid over him taking my house speakers out so when he got back we started fighting because not only did he take my speaker but he cut the cords shorter . I dont know why but that dream popped into my head and i stopped yelling and freakin because i realized thats what she ment about do the right thing.  I needed to stop and realize my brother was still was very imature for his age and he didnt have a mother and his father was a major drinker and a violent and angry one !!!! He needed guidence not to be kicked out from place to place . So instead of loosing my mind and kicking him out i became a teacher and i now believe thats what she meant. The right thing was not to give up on him and thats i wanted to so i think thats where the betrayel on going outside to party around a bon fire in my dream ???? Well last but not least last dream i had of her we were standing on the roof of this tall building and lookin down into the lights of a city and i told her the lights were so pretty and she looked at me and shook her head and said they were an illusion anf they w ill suck you in ???????????? Ill keep you posted im not sure what it is  but it seems like everytime i dream of my mom something life changing happens ??? Well theres my short version of the story, anyone think they can make sense out of this please feel free to share !!!!!!!!

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(@lynne)
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Wow Kellie,
It seems you are getting messages in your dreams from you mom, but i am not expert.  It is wonderful that she is with you and you can feel her presence. That must be a wonderful feeling.  That last one is interesting...i am wondering what it means. I was always told and from what i have read...that we can figure out our own dreams and our feelings on what they mean are usually right. What was you first feeling after you awoke from the dream, or it will come to you later...like with the other dream? I personally have a lot of crazy dreams, especially when i am stressed.  They usually are telling me something, but not in the way your dreams are.
Yours are related to you mom and family it seems.
thank you for sharing...
lynne

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(@kelliec)
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Hello Lynne

I was scared but excited over the 2nd dream. I've had a few more that were really weird and things happened after those dreams that were sum what connected to the situation but with my mom i was scared and excited now i just don't like to dream things like that. I don't know if my dreams mean any thing but i know weird stuff happens after i have certain ones ??? Not all my dreams just ones pertaining to my family like you said and its weird because i will dream a weird dream before what ever is gonna happen happens, so there's no stress in it . Ive actually told people about my dreams and they get creeped out when what ever happens. but then ive been told you can connect your dreams to anything close to u ??? I'm not a dream expert but i don't like those kinda dreams. Any experiences on your end ???

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(@lynne)
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Hey kellie,
 I've had some pretty wild dreams, bad nightmares, but i have really never take the time to really look into them. Or pay enough attention to what they are trying to tell me. Even when I know i should... Last summer - I had a dream that i actually woke up during the dream, but still in the dream. The dream was a nightmare and it was horrible...From what my boyfriend told me, I guess i just sat up in the bed... first crying, then i started screaming..I then walked outside....I remember feeling like nothing was real, i remember walking outside, walking down my driveway crying and screaming, i don't know what i was looking for, it just felt like i had gone crazy.  It took me about 20 minutes before i became fully awake. It was the worst night of my life and i will never forget the feeling. For about 4 or 5 days i did not feel right, i can't explain it.  All i know is after that dream all i could say is   ' i think i know what i would feel like to go insane'    I don't know what it meant, it was a very scary and strange dream. I pray to God i never have another one.  I have the whole dream written down. Of course after i came back to myself i could not go to sleep, so i started writing..  I started tying to find information on these kind of dreams.   I know at the time i was really stressed and i guess stress can cause them.  But i do believe it was what they call a night terror.  It was horrible, and i really feel for the people that have them all the time. I could not handle it. For months i was afraid i was going to have another one. I still think about it on occasion.
 gosh, maybe we should start a dream group too  Smile  that could be interesting too.

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Yeah they are scary !! And they seem so real even after u wake up and i think that scares me even more !!!  Thanxs for the invite on the dream group. I'm curious to see how other people dream ????

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