Well just got the confirmation. My mother has advanced untreatable cancer and it has metastasizd and is throughout her lungs and lymph system. Being here in Cali well tomorrow I will be heading to see if I can visit my Aunt Louise (my moms older sister and let her know) possibly tonight if I can get ahold of them.

Right now just going to go for a walk.... Not really sure what all I think or of all the reasonings...

I had just gotten off the phone with my friend David talking about how part of life is death... yeah ... still though... kinda want to be back in FL kinda want to be here in San Diego or maybe head to AZ for the Awakening Conference - just kinda numb I guess and nervous..