The last year was a time of major shifting for me. Like, in literally all areas of my life at once. It was super overwhelming, and scary, and disorienting to uproot my identity, my purpose, my ideals, my values and my beliefs all at once.
It’s not something I consciously chose, it just sort of happened. I suppose you could say it was ‘in the stars’
There was not much I could hang onto, or control when it came to the big things in my life, and in fact, the more I tried to control the major things, the more out of reach they felt.
What ended up being my saving grace, was to reach only for present moment things I knew for sure I had influence over, such as my physical health, for example. I did have control over eating things that helped me to feel vibrant, and moving my body in ways that helped me to feel strong.
I stopped reaching beyond my current reality, I stopped striving, I stopped trying to control the outcomes of my life… and instead and I just took honest assessment of what I valued, and I began focusing on teeny tiny present moment actions that were in alignment with those values.
Somewhere along the line (very recently, really) almost without me even knowing it (and after a very long bout of nothing moving or changing, circumstantially speaking) I noticed that the bigger life stuff began taking care of itself.
Even though a vision of my future is finally starting to take shape before my eyes, I’m choosing to continue to focus only on my values, and the little, present moment actions that align me with them.
I get the feeling, if I just keep doing this, that many a magical, unimaginable thing might just babystep it’s way right into my life.
